So I have not totally moved…
October 12th, 2010 § Leave a Comment
Let’s just say that I have found another space to fill in, but I can never leave this blog. So, I’m gonna write here once in a while. I’ll start with this:
Today, I have been working for this University for exactly one year. A year ago, I was this excited 23-year old who wanted to see the world. I did not have expectations of sorts. I did not have plans. I did not have back-up plans in case things went wrong. I just wanted to take things as they come.
During my first few months (or weeks) in the University, I was excited all right. I was excited of the possibilities — the people that I would get to meet, of the things that I would do with these people, and so on. But I should have known myself better. I should have known that this excitement was temporary.
A few months back and until now, I have been thinking of new ‘possibilities’, of things to look forward to and feel excited about. I have been thinking of what it feels like to be a student again after four years of being away from university. Of the things that my friends and I are going to do. Of the things that could go wrong.
But going back, this one year of my life has been not really been momentous. Perhaps when I look back, it would just be like any other year of my life. I know because I don’t feel the need to romanticize this experience of living in another country. I used to make myself believe that this should be one hell of an experience. I have been to quite a few places, and I should be very excited about them, but hell no. Now I think I know why this is so. Forgive me for the cliche, but I would say that it is because I am not sharing these places with the people I truly care about.
